放手，不再执着

今夜，我选择了放手。。

我拒绝了执着与固执。。

一切，就随缘吧。。

是你的，终究是你的。。

至少我也已经做了我该做的一切。。

说了该说的一切。。

尝试我所能尝试的一切。。

其他人的抉择，

我无资格去作出任何的影响与猜测。。

我只能默默的接受已成的事实。。

谢谢您曾经给过我那虚构的幸福。。

让我至少曾享受过其短暂的过程。。

努力

有时候，我会想。。
为什么我需要那么的努力去完成某个事项？
有时候，我又会想。。
为什么我需要继续努力，尽量做到最好？
有时候，我又再会想。。
为什么有那么多的人只是会静静的坐在那边，然后期待成果。。
期待其他人辛苦努力得来的成果。。
却经常吵闹着 “为什么那么的不公平”
但，试问又有多少人给过人适合的 “公平” 呢？

离开枷锁

今夜，是个回家的日子。。
也许很多人嘴上都说：“吉隆坡很危险，人心险恶”
但对我来说。。
那确是个温暖的地方。。
因只有在那里，我才感受到我的存在。。
因只有在那里，我才知道有很多群人仍旧对我不离不弃。。
因只有在那里，我才知道我，依然是我。。

这儿虽已培育了我数年，创造了不少的回忆。。
但总有一天我须离开这儿，走到远方去。。
总有一天，我不再出现在这儿的环境中。。
每件事都有好人与坏人的角色。。
也许我也当了不少的坏人角色。。
但在此我只想感激那曾经与我创造过不少回忆的朋友们，
谢谢您，谢谢您曾经与我的过去。。

Speechless

I don't know what should I say..
You keep on telling me that,
you are stress..
you don't want to do all these task..
you don't want to look at those stuff..
you have no time to study for the test..
But what should I do?
This is what you had promised me previously..
Whenever I ask, do you need any help from anyone?
your answers are always be the same..
"no need, I think I do myself is better."
Whenever I ask, about when you will finish the task?
your answers are always be the same..
"I'll try my best and try send you before xx."
Whenever I offered you some member for help,
your answers are always ended up with the same..
"They sent me shit, I don't want to look at it."
I really don't know what to say..
I have the experiment need to be plan in very detail..
Although seem many person are helping me for the planning..
But end up is still the same, seem working alone..
I couldn't say I understand everyone's situation,
But at least I could understand a little more than other,
But how many of you all had understand my situation?
When I ended up by giving up,
When I ended up by attending test without full or even little preparation,
What the rest doing there?
Never, Never, Never..
There are no-one would like to or even physically or mentally support me..
Ended up by fighting myself..
But thankful.. I still got some great group mate there,
who willing to tell me: "Vincent, Beritahu I bila nak datang, atau I datang tengok apa boleh bantu"
I felt warm..
But for you, I started to felt disappointed..
Other can finished up almost everything by they own, or few people..
And I gave a lot of members for helping you..
Although mostly are been rejected for your stand,
But those wonderful had been stressed by you too..
You said you have no time to study,
But you can study and memorize almost everything for the test,
But how about other? I just hope that you could learn some spirit from other..
Don't just look on yourself but try understand for other as well..
You are not working alone,
but instead, I'm..

Abnormal

我发觉我好像不是正常人。。
每当别人非常不得空时，我总是非常的得空。。
每当别人很压力的时候，我总是脑袋空空，没有压力。。
每当别人非常得空时，我却忙得不可开交。。
每当别人轻轻松松时，我却开始感到压力。。
我究竟是不合群，还是不正常呢？
恩。。
也许我就是这样吧？哈哈。。

孤军作战

也不知从何时开始。。

我经常的被遗忘与忽略。。

这一种感觉，很不好受。。

也许，与我平常在工作上的认真有关吧？

不知。。

也不想了解。。

因为目前还没有打算作出任何的改变。。

也许我该习惯这一种感觉吧。。

因为我始终不被当成其中的一份子。。