What a funny day..

I woke up around 10.30+am.. I was hurry as I knew I slept lately.. I had promised my friends to gather at 12pm! Everything is fine and I had prepared and I wait them at the moon stage of Titiwangsa LRT Station.. After that, we have our lunch at The Mall.. a restaurant that other said the food was not delicious enough-- Chicken Rice Shop..

The Chicken that I ate.. Actually This is the Picture After I ate finish the rice.. ^^
After that, we go to PWTC for the education fair.. However, the education fair begin tomorrow.. not today.. Zzz... Today was just their preparation.. Za dao...Then we will have to move back...
Go Home?? That's not a good idea.. come out just for a lunch?? Zzz.. so, we decided to have a shopping at The Mall... There's nothing we wanna to buy.. everything is expensive.. Oh my.. what a funny day.. haha

Twilight- What a Bore day..

I was join for a movie with my ex-form 6 classmates... the movie which named Twilight.. I couldn't imagine that this was the movie that all of my sisters said bore for man but good for couples.. Zzz.. I didn't even expected that the movie don't have anything that is 18SX.. ><><><><>< Oh ya.. the UKM Camp.. haha.. tomorrow I will post about it.. Hehe..

STPM was over!!

Well.. STPM was over.. Everything was gone... and here's my long holiday began...
Everyone was pressured by the STPM examinations.. Maybe they are inconfidence for their results? or wanna to do as perfect as they can? I felt stressless.. >< i'm not mean by chuan-ing other, but that's truth for me.. I'm still able to relax myself for few hours each day, having enough sleep almost all days during STPM season.. Everything was fine and as usual.. I just have some stress during few days before STPM was started.. Maybe I was inconfidence on my paper 2 results? Hopefully not.. But anyway, everything had finish up.. and here's my expectation and hopes for my STPM papers..

Chemistry
1-Full Of Hopes.. Even I do not full of confidence that I could correct more than 40 question, but I think I can correct more than 35 question ba..
2-Full Of wishes.. haha.. not so confidence about it.. but hope that i can get as great the result is..

Biology
1-Full Of Happiness, as I can do most of the questions.. I had check it out with some forumers and classmates... As I know, I wrong less than 5.. If i'm not mistaken.. However, there are some question with no answers.. haha.. i think just one ba..
2-Full Of mystery.. As I am not sure how many that I had wrote correctly..I wrote a lot for each question.. Hope I can get what the scheme need..

Mathematic T
1-Full Of Hopes.. I think I had wrong at least 20+.. According to my teacher. 70 already can get A for STPM.. So, I hope that I could get A or A- for that.. and hope that the grade wont so high.. ^^
2-It should be easier than paper 1 as exams that i face previously.. However, I did bad for this.. I had wrong around 50+ marks.. ><><><><

General Paper
1-It was tricky.. >< I dunno how was my result for this.. Hopefully I could correct more than 50/60 questions.. Haha.. But... that's just hope... mostly.. ..
2-It was a funny paper... I had done a questions that have a big problem that confusing most of the candidates... Once I get home... and get into forum, I notice that the question is really troublesome.. >< it had caused most of the candidates fail to finish up the paper or do bad in the next section.. and I was one of them... MPM said that they will edit the scheme.. however, this problem had caused unfairness to most of the students.. if MPM give bonus marks for student which do question 8 ( the problemsome question), it is unfair to those who do question 7.. and so one.. it had influenced most of the candidates and MPM is harder to be fair to all sides..

Urm.. Anyway, I will still have confidence that I could get CGPA3.0 Or even higher.. Hope that I could get it.. haha.. But, will it be?

What a bad day..

I woke up around 9+am today.. planned to relax before i start my revision on the coming paper (math2) I played for approx half hour, then the line began to work bad.. it keep on disconnect and made my character nearly die caused by the laggy.. I decided to stop playing WoW and planned to move my character back to inn. Unfortunately, the laggy made my character died at a instance.. I need to reconnect in order to revive my character and bring him back to inn.. I tried for few hours and I decided to give up.. However, my mood on doing revision had messed up. Forcefully, I went for a nap and hang until evening.. I noticed that the line became better than afternoon... So and then I logged in to my character and successfully moved him to inn for a rest.. haiz.. what a bad day.. Another 3 days for next paper..

Second Relax day..

WoW.. yesterday was thought as last paper for me.. >< since Bio Paper 2 had finished til now, i haven touch book yet.. I dunno what should study and I had no feeling on wanna to study.. Yesterday was a quite kinda good day for me..
I thought Biology should be a paper that I would empty a lot.. instead of that, I successfully filled all blanks and question.. I was able to finish up all parts and questions.. Well I knew that I had lost some marks, but I think it will not affect my achievement a lot.. My aim for Biology was just B-.. But after I had finish this paper, my wish on bio had blow up to B.. I knew I can do it! If I able to do well in paper two.. haha.. If not, C may also be a problem for me..

So how's about the other Paper? General Paper? There was a major problems occur there.. I had expected I can get A for my General Paper, but after Paper 2, I knew I can't even achieve that grad.. I had lost a lot of marks due to my stupid mistakes.. I had drawn two graph as the first was the mistake one.. There should be 4 years but I thought just 3 years.. luckily I noticed it quite early.. But unfortunately I had been an idiot on section E.. I wrote something that I also dun really understand about it.. At last, I had canceled it and rewrite.. It had consumed a lot of time and caused me can't finish the section E well.. so, Section D and E may had been main cause of my target-failed..

Chemistry, I felt it is quite okie.. I can do all parts except a hard question ( I thought only? ) It is related to enthalpy change of atomization.. The rest, I had confidence on it even many answers are just my personal hypothesis.. haha.. I had confidence that I can achieve a high rank for this..

Math, should be the only paper that I worry right now.. I had done bad for this paper.. I had no confidence that I can get what my teacher expected me to get.. I apologize to my teacher but she cheer up me by saying 70 marks able to get A.. I hope I still can do it.. as there was a lot of marks for the method that used.. However, I had done a bad assumption on my paper 1, as I knew I had wrong at least 25 marks.. I had no confidence to get the rest marks.. As I always do some minor mistakes that caused me to lose a lot of marks.. i.e the sign or just some simple calculations.. Anyway, I should appreciate on my time-management for this paper as I had finished it by using 2 hours instead of 3 hours for this paper.. I still able to double-checked my answer for the questions.. due to the one hour checking, I had save a lot of marks due to corrections for those sign and simple calculation that caused me lose marks.. hehe..

Anyway, the actual STPM is still going on.. all papers that i had stated above are just paper 2, that's structure and essays.. (except math) The paper that Still left all are just MCQ (multiple choice question).. I had confidence that I can get at least 35 correct for each MCQ paper per 50 quest.. However, I will still need some refreshment for the studies.. I will start my revision tonight.. or probably tomorrow.. haha.. depend on my situations..

Good Luck to all STPM examinees ya.. enjoy your last gov. examinations..

Funny memorable clip or Seniors

These was some very funny and cool memorable clip from my school's senior.. 5s5 2004..
The video is very funny.. enjoy it!

First Memorable Clip..


Second memorable Clip..


Haha... very funny.. is it?

政治海啸

正当全球刮起政治海啸，
多国政府撤换领导层之际，
我们也是时候转变了
就如民政党的口号
－－再转变

就让我们自己
随着时代的变迁，
环境的改变，
以及人心的变化
而改进自己吧．．

A Week Before STPM..

A Week to go.. My pretty love will come... STPM.. i've been waiting you since a year ago.. very suffer, you know? Haiz.. for sure you don't know, if you are not a STPM student.. But i also dunno how suffer am i.. just many homework to do? many things have to learn? many work need to settle? many relationship have to clear off? haiz..
Everybody is very busy for the revision right now, for sure, I should be one of them.. But unfortunately.. Haiz.. there are so many things so fan.. cannot concentrate on study.. keep on thinking what should i do after STPM... wow.. Dec.. Jan.. Feb.. Mac.. .. .. until June.. get in U.. how terrible.. all unknown to me.. haiz.. first time want to leave house for a long time.. no friends surround me.. everything is new.. have to face about it.. The food, environment, friends, etc.. But the only thing that i worry is peoples.. >< I wonder what type of human that I will face outside.. I'm still a newbie.. easy to be hurt.. even at secondary school.. always think many useless matter.. and hurt myself.. Friends.. original? spicy? hot? sour? what type also got.. but the most worry thing is.. it haven cooked.. >< kena virus.. macam mana?

Dunno what Am i Bull Shit up there.. Currently thinking about few friends.. my love, how to start? how to continue? will be longer? Dunno.. so scare to open mouth.. but have to open mouth.. >< Brothers? thought I am their brothers also? wonder about it.. Friends, honest? trustworthy? dunno.. everyone is unfamiliar to me right now.. I thought you friend, you thought me shit? or gold? dunno.. I just wanna i will get hurt in any relationship or not.. I am worry, but have to face.. learn to suit the environments.. That's our fate.. Human? Are actually very hard to do.. I saw many faces.. around me.. ><.. Human.. I doubt about it's trustworthy right now..

Anyway, Good Luck.. for all the examinees.. A Level, SPM, STPM, STAM..

人。真

为何人总是如此？
如此变态
如此狡猾
如此狠心
如此残暴

入屋打劫
强暴妇女
谋害双亲

难道人就不能安分守己
真心真意地
对待别人
对待朋友
对待亲人？

路

路，
是人走出来的；
墙，
是人造出来的

康庄大道－－是因为你
有收费站－－是因为你

那何不从未建此大道
而行之小径？

拥有．失去

有时候,
失去会比拥有
来得更幸福， 更快乐

拥有时，
你得学会
保护，保持，保存
你得学会
拿起，握紧，放下

而失去，
并不需要这一切
因为不曾拥有
又何来失去？

傻

我很傻
因为我活了十九年
也学不会做一个人的道理
也许我根本就不适合做人

我常常羡慕禽兽们
因为他们什么都不需要想
只需为了生存而生存

而人呢?
往往只会自寻烦恼

而忘了上天给予的任务
--真心,真诚,真爱的生存

War...

War happened everywhere.. In China, In Japan, In Russia, In Europe.. and in everyone... I had meet one of my friend.. and he told me that he is always the loser in the wars.. this is due to his environment and his good personality.. and he is having wars with many person as they are a good fighter... well... in the other hand, I was having war too.. and I was a loser.. and the lost had suffered me.. the effect is too strong.. as it is my weakness.. to overcome my weakness.. I would have to change my mind and thoughts.. but i knew.. i can't do that.. so what can i do is to accept the lost and suit myself with the lost.. but unfortunately, i have to face to my lost everyday... and it had hurt me.. that's why i have to change myself.. so solve the problem of facing the lost.. to find and lead a happier lifestyle..

That's my story in these few month that i was just told to few person..

Curing..

Well, this few day I'm not comfortable.. I'm unhappy.. the stress and unhappiness had caused me to suffer of headache.. the condition is even worse in the class.. the noise, the crowd, the condition and the environment.. about the reason, I'm not likely to share.. this problem had affect me a lot.. can't fall in sleep... can't concentrate in studies... can't study at all.. and do nothing instead of nothing... forcefully.. i will have to give a good break to myself... to solve my own problem.. to settle all of these.. by finding the best solution.. and now, i had come to a conclusion, is this the best way for solving the problem? i bet it is.. and it may change my lifestyle... all of these... will have to thank to my friend and my brother... from what they told me before.. refresh and refresh in my mind.. this may be another drop in my life, but I had confidence that I could handle it nicely.. Even i had lose all of these, but i still have other... I could not ignore and forgot it.. maybe i was too straight for it before.. maybe i was too concentrate on it.. what i need to do is to be flexible.. in the coming few days.. is the begin of the changes.. the begin of my new lifestyle..

Day or Night

Am I thinking too much or over?
Histories had been made..
Truth, can be identified easily..
Who am I?
Just a little sand which can be ignored at all..
The existence is negligible..
As what the electron be..
The low Ionization Energy can be achieve easily..
The displacement reaction can occur spontaneously..
It is only been used when the atoms or molecule need for it’s specific uses..
It is only shift to those atom which have more electronegativity..
And I bet it would move when the timing reach..
And it is waiting the time to come..

Happiness,
Will only occur at a specific timing..
It is no longer with me..
It’s just dream..
All surrounded,
Is just bore, bore and bore..
Words, is just for the needs..
Games, is just for the needs..
Friends, is also for the needs..
There are nothing with me..
I hate..
The one who I be..
Hate the World’s creator..
It’s better be nothing..

Diamond

Walking along the way..
Between the buildings..
Lonely..
But the day..
Made the way become safety..

An old man sitting at the end of the path..
A cat is sitting next to him..
Lonely..
But the cat had success it..
Everything had be fined..

Old man said,
You had gone into a dessert..
A dessert which full of cactus..
You found a cave..
A cave of diamonds..
Of wealthy.. And your happiness..

You may get into the cave..
Enjoyed with your dream..
Own the wealth..
Own the diamonds..
Own everything that you wish to..

But..
It’s only a dream..
You may not own any diamond..
Even one of it..
As they are not belong to you..

Yes..
You may..
Just take some diamonds and..
Get out of the cave..
Get out of the dessert..
But you will never own a diamond that belong to yourself..

And I’m here,
To suggest you..
Try to get the way..
The way to get the diamond..
By yourself..
And you will notice..
The Diamond is always bright..
No matter where it is and when it is..

A Dead Cat

Early in the morning, when I reached school, Siew Yuan, one of my classmates rush into classroom and ask whether Wei Zhen and I was free on time or not.. She looked busy and worried.. I wonder what she was needed for help.. I accepted her request..

She was holding two piece of large mahjong paper.. Walking in a high speed.. I asked, “Actually what am I going to help?” She told me ---- Bury a death’s cat.. I shocked.. Bury a cat? How can her find it out? What’s the story behind of it? Is her killed the cat or accidentally made the cat died?

My question was answered immediately without any doubt.. She told me that she had saw the cat yesterday when the cat was nearly die.. She felt guilty for do not helping the cat by sending it to a vent’s clinic for a therapy.. Quite a helpful and compassion girl.. If I’m her, or the other, may not bother about the life of a cat, especially those cat which do not belong to anyone..

Finally we reached the place where the death body located.. We took the body by using the mahjong paper.. The body was cold, and strengthened.. We brought it to the school’s field..

Unfortunately, we couldn’t get the hoe and it’s hardly to make a hole for burying the cat. We used the stone and some small stick to making the hole.. It was hard and difficult and I brought to a situation that surrender.. haha… how easy am I surrender? I went to find the school gardener to get the hoe and luckily I could found him and get the hoe.. It may be easy to dig a hole by using a hoe. We successfully buried the cat with the help of Mr. Mok.. his stamina better than me a lot and I’m admire on his stamina.. haha… this had insist me to train my body well ><

Lastly, just hope that the cat will sleep for a good ever days..

Deer's life

That’s a deer..
Who stay in a pristine woodland..

Disaster will always happen in time of happiness..
Trees fell down..
Animals leaved their habitats..
The source of natural been contaminated..
That’s fact of deforestation..

It was not longer suitable for its living..
The predators force it to leave its home..
Water and food have been contaminated..
The competitor of source of natural not longer allow its existence..
It have to leave..

The way of exploration is always difficult..
The way of suitably is always uncomfortable..
It start to miss its old-times..
It began to miss its families..
But it still have to go..
As the condition..

It is now living at a new forest..
A forest that may affect by the edge effects..
But its source for living is mildly contaminated..
And there are less competitor of lives..
It may more suitable for its living..
Or may not?

Nobody will know its future..
Unless you are The God of nature..

An Atom

An Atom which called Chlorine have 17 electrons..
If we are going to take off an electron from this atom..
It’s quite difficult..
Because of its strong effective nucleus charge..
We need to add on a lot of energy to supply the energy that we need..
If we successfully take off an electron from it,
What is this electron going to be?

It may attract by other atom
Such as Magnesium..
But is the Magnesium willing to accept it?
Its is electron affinity so high…
It is absolutely impossible to occur spontaneously

But..
It successfully occurred..
The electron is finally leave it..
It may get what it want..
But it may lose what it should have..
Its energy..
Its own positions..
And so on..

Watery Ball

When a watery ball fall on a coast, a seaside, a sandy field..
There are many sand adhere to the surface of the ball..
But there are never have sand that can adhere to the ball forever..
will there any sand that can enter to the watery ball?
Perhaps it is,
But it wont last longer..
And may just some days..

Shout Box

I just Create a Shout Box.. but unfortunately I dunno how to adjust it's width.. so I just let the Original be.. haha..

Here is the Link..
Mr. Lam Shout Box

Back From The Camp..

I was just attended a Sixth Form Cadet Police's Camping on Eco Resort, Bentong few days ago. It was a three days two nights camping. Well, actually this should be a good and enjoyable camp.. but, unfortunately i sick on the second day.. But, because of this, i saw many things that i had never see before.. that's friends.. and how's the ships' structure.. so do the sailor's characteristics..

Ships.. isn't build on a stronghold bases; sailors.. have their own personalities which state that they are living independently, without any others.. that's what I felt.. from what I saw.. I don't know how to describe my feelings.. I have no idea for that.. If i really wanna to split it out here.. I know.. I will break all the weakly-hold ships base.. So I rather not to do so.. As what Chinese phase said, " Once a gov. is in trouble, they will notice that who are actually is their best supporters and loyalties" My head was keeping pain time by time when I was still in the camp.. I wonder I was eaten something else that are not fully-cooked or unhygienic.. or I had eat too less for these few days.. or I have no enough sleeps these few days.. but all of this turned into a better after a little vomit.. I drank some water and I felt the gastric uncomfortable and I fall into a vomit..

Never mind.. all had already over.. What can I split it out here is I really notice that some friendships should I highly appreciated it whereas some friendship I shouldn't hard-hold it, as It already have a vast fissure.. I wonder I had done something else to him/her before or I have bring a lot of trouble to him/her before.. I felt that.. I had already done my best.. I try not to bring any trouble to anyone.. but why? He/She treated me like that.. seem like everything that I done are meaningless.. didn't and never bring out any sacrifices or results.. Okie.. I knew.. I know what should I done.. As what God always said, " Let everything happened naturally" as these will just go through half of a year or fews months later.. I know.. I may do it..

I reached home last afternoon, around 2.00p.m, if I am not mistaken.. I stay at my neighbour house.. when i noticed that I didn't bought my key to the camp ( but I satisfied that I bought it in this morning) I received a bad news.. My father was in the hospital.. Part of his finger had been cut accidentally during his working.. I am not really understood about the situation since I was just back from the camp.. I rush to the hospital.. Everything had been all right.. Hope so.. My father was watching movie on the laptop.. sitting on the bed.. without saying any words.. but he seem like very enjoyable.. without sufferings.. When his friends called and asking cares from him.. isn't him? or just keeping up something in his heart? this is what's almost all the men done.. I hate it..

I told some of my brotherhood and friends about my fathers.. and again.. I saw it.. Why everyone is like that? I hate it! instead of that.. some are still the same.. as what I thought.. Thanks.. really Thanks.. even just few words.. I felt warm.. but so.. even just few words.. I felt cold.. I really have no idea.. What should I going to do now.. I hate it.. I felt sad.. I felt angry.. I felt nervous.. I felt.. better stop thinking about it.. just let everything happened naturally.. as these the fact that all have to face to during the process of living..

Standard Temperature and Pressure (s.t.p)

I felt cold..
For my Future..
I wonder I can have a bright future or not..
I worry that I couldn’t have a huge ways for obtaining my desired life..
I know..
It may be a hard way to go..
And I will have to make it as bright as sunlight..
A vast, shortened and smooth way..
By consuming my times, dates, and ships..

I know..
It is a non-ideal behavior..
Caused by the unnatural high pressure..
But I have to..
Have to reduce it by Le Chatelier’s Principle..
That’s shifting myself to a lower pressure position..
Friends..
I know you are going to leave me alone..
That’s fact of our lives..
As we are getting older and older..
Let it be.. naturally..
Without any matter surrounding it..
I will..
Try my best on my studies..
As what we had promised before..

Chemistry.. Biology.. and Maths..
Both of you are my reactant..
And Hardness..
You would be my catalyst..
Come..
Let’s increase our rate..
To the right side of the Equilibrium..
By the Temperature of about 1000 °C..
To get what we want..
That’s you..
Successfulness of STPM...

By : Mr. Lam
The Story of Life of Chemistry

Smileless

If you knew me for quite many years.. You may noticed i'm a person who always letting my smiles appear at my face.. just as what other always said, " can you stop smiling to me?"..

But, It will not longer occur. If you had meet me recently, you will found that i'm not longer a person who always smile..
Smile is getting off from me as my life is getting worse and worse..
fulled of pressures..
fulled of sadness..
fulled of works..
fulled of ..
Lam..
Is no longer as who you knew..
I think..
And hope..
It will never appear again..